the summer of silence
SILENCE.
not the soothing, peaceful kind. not the stillness we all crave, when we’re feeling overwhelmed.
i’m talking about silence that is deafening, unwelcome. the kind that roars in your ears when you’re wishing to hear answers instead.
the kind that makes you want to scream and tear your hair out and crush the indecision and fear and bewilderment and waiting.
the kind that creeps in like an insidious enemy until your fortress is shaky, your walls unstable.
the kind that slowly crumbles your dreams and strength and fortitude.
an absence of sound, a lack of response. the silent treatment.
without relentness noise, without noise at all. yet an emptiness that fills a room. and fills your mind as well.
an awakening, a surrender. people and situations will disappoint. i will disappoint as well.
breathe. utilize those meditation techniques. accept what i cannot alter. a hard one for me since i often hope beyond reality.
what lesson is in the silence? what, in its quiet cacophony, is it trying to tell me?
i always think i can change the progression of things. sometimes i’m right. sometimes i have to eventually give in and change me.
i do believe i control my destiny. i’m just not sure i control its course.
but one thing is certain. the summer of silence will test me. is the silence ever a bit too loud for you? let me know how you cope. ******* Click to receive my studio notes in your inbox each week. (And get my complimentary guide to the essence7 journey as my gift to you!) [maxbutton id="1"]
