that all-important flicker
today i'd like to share a poem that i wrote four years ago, in august 2018, when i was facing down my dark side . . . i was struggling a bit with loneliness, which was spilling over into questioning the entire trajectory of the path i was on. and i wasn't sure at the time exactly what i needed to pull myself up and out of that overcast-sky feeling. but i knew then (and i still think now) that it’s okay to explore the stormy emotional arena now and again, to allow introspection to occur. i am fully aware that i've created a wonderful life for myself, and i’m grateful for every one of those wonders each day. that said, however, we all have rainy days of angst.
beauty pleases and it calms it can suffocate as well vibrant color, moving lips can’t explain, can’t get through always looking rarely finding
thought it would be easier thought it would be quicker thought it would go gracefully there’s only just a flicker a flicker of that life
much harder than imagined opening up new doors with intricate polished knobs ideas not yet thought of moments that need grasping
thought it would be easier thought it would be quicker thought it would go gracefully there’s only just a flicker a flicker that might be enough
some days joyous, even certain others curled in a ball smoothing edges shifting moods perseverance through the tears
thought it would be easier thought it would be quicker thought it would go gracefully there’s only just a flicker a flicker that keeps it going
at times the obvious darkness both appeals and it speaks occasionally, intentionally questions that will stretch me breaking through all the mystique
thought it would be easier thought it would be quicker thought it would go gracefully there’s only just a flicker a flicker that grows stronger
the light is seeping in and suddenly it’s clearing what felt like muddled thought clouds in the pinkish sky of morning dissipating, disappearing
thought it would be easier thought it would be quicker thought it would go gracefully there’s only just a flicker a flicker just beginning to burn my hand
