reflections on my semi-solo retreat
after reviewing my scrawled and copious notes, reflecting on my five days away from home base, i can sincerely say . . .
it was good.
ample time and space in order to sort through my thoughts and emotions, goals and regrets, at times jumbled up into one messy chaotic puzzle. (shoved to the side until i can brush it off, examine its enormity, weigh its significance.)
a welcomed respite in which i could over-analyze, push away any underlying fears, make plans. and try to keep from creating bigger obstacles to surmount.
i like digesting the world as i see it.
but what did i actually DO?!
-made myself comfortable in unfamiliar surroundings -grieved a recent death, relived an older one -offered solace to others -hiked out of my comfort zone -marveled at beautiful beaches, waterfalls, the rainforest -experienced a mother’s worry -relaxed with my husband -laughed with my son -participated in deep conversations -cleaned personal spaces -cleaned our clothes -scratched my thumb and whined about a hangnail -reminisced about each place i've called home -slept on the best mattress in the world -ate scrambled eggs -alternated between heat on, windows open, heat on, windows open -cried big tears -sat in the sun -made my bed every day and appreciated the ritual -talked things through . . . with myself . . . out loud
and how ELSE did i spend my hours?!
-dreaming vividly -enjoying introspective puttering -alternating between contentment and disquiet for my solitude -receiving hints about the future -shopping for immediate needs -experiencing tremendous nervousness -taking lots and lots and lots of photos -zigzagging hormonally -feeling enamored, hopeful, elated, zealous -feeling annoyed, bereaved, angry, disgusted -lingering over people's stories, both happy and sad -consuming megacalories one day, barely eating another -writing and journaling, writing and journaling -reading for inspiration, reading for entertainment -drinking coffee, and more coffee, and even more coffee -neglecting my typical daily routine -sneaking in uncommon afternoon naps -allowing myself to feel detached -choosing when to feel engaged -deciding once more that my life is my own
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