moods that take me

i’ve been thinking a lot lately about how others see me how i come across and if it’s at all similar to how i see myself

who do they think i am? what do they think i can do? when do they think i feel strong, feel weak? where do they think i concentrate my efforts? why do they think i believe the things i believe?

and what DO they think i believe? because sometimes i’m pretty sure that people don’t really get me

i'm not concerned or troubled simply curious an interesting puzzle to sort through

i share a lot of myself on social media yet i don’t ever go as deep as i could and i’ve noticed myself relating less and less to those that i once had so much in common with feeling like an absolute island most days

at the same time i’ve felt the need for transformation, and a deep healing has been taking place inside of me while the pink house receives its visible renewal i too have begun my own inner restoration

i’m beginning to remember the person i truly am the person that has felt so very far away so often out of touch these last three years

the april-i-remember is re-emerging once again always reinventing myself    

    “falling slowly, eyes that know me and i can't go back moods that take me and erase me and i’m painted black”

(lyrics from falling slowly)         tweet