don't let it come knocking.

i've had a fairly frequent visitor recently. one i haven't welcomed with open arms.

in fact, i've grown restless during these social calls. waiting for them to come to a close.

and i've also noticed other things happening while my visitor is present. a burning in my chest. sharply contrasting with an icy chill in my heart.

"go away. go away." i whisper silently to myself. to the sensations. to the visitor.

remembering to breathe helps. 1, 2, 3. 1, 2, 3. letting go of unhelpful beliefs tends to soothe my discomfort as well.

and, in between visits, self-care becomes important. delighting in things that bring me joy.

but these practices still feel somewhat incomplete. i find myself dangling in a precarious balance. between complacency and anger.

it is time to tell my visitor that we simply must stop seeing each other.

because this relationship is just not working out. i need to move on, put my emotional health first. and then i need to forgive and forget, not dwell in regret.

so i'm saying my goodbyes. i am gently but firmly pushing my visitor through the door.

cutting off all lines of communication. (i think it best that i make a clean break.)

i feel stronger, having made this decision. my mind is clearer already.     oh, and my visitor's name?

RESENTMENT.

don't let it come knocking.    

    have you ever felt deep resentment towards something or someone? how have you attempted to deal with it?

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