currently i am
yesterday was a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day. (who's familiar with the wonderful children's book with those words in its title?)
i thought about telling you all about it, even wrote it all out. but then i decided against sharing it, after reading (and weeping) about a family my niece knows who unexpectedly lost their 12-year-old son this month. suddenly all of my worries - even though a few have lingering and troubling effects - seemed small in comparison. i felt ashamed for complaining.
and that was actually my third attempt at writing today's blog post. i was originally going to do an update on my word of the year for 2018. but i found i hadn't quite gathered my thoughts enough to come up with a coherent and cohesive synopsis. it's been a complicated year.
then i wrote a rambling, somewhat disconnected free-write about my current emotional state. i know some of my readers may have been able to identify with my thoughts, as i'm quite sure we all spend days - perhaps weeks, maybe even months - floundering a bit. you know that sense of sometimes being unable to grasp life in fruitful or effective ways, beyond what is absolutely necessary? not expanding or stretching much further than needed. it's been a creative time, if not a productive time (if that makes any sense at all).
finally, i gave up on all three ideas and decided to just zero in on the present. on what's happening right now, during this moment in time.
so, borrowing from other currently i am lists i've seen, this is what i came up with:
wearing: lots of black
eating: lots of sushi
listening to: billie eilish music (nonstop)
reading: the "alphabet" series by sue grafton, about a private eye named kinsey millhone (second time through)
loving: the way my qigong practice grounds me and brings me peace
watching: recordings of this season's "the voice" on youtube
feeling: unsettled
studying: italian (slowly and painfully) and art therapy (self-healing techniques)
anticipating: seeing my 2 sons at christmas (they're coming to italy again!)
planning: my may 2019 retreat
okay, now it's your turn. tell me what you're currently . . .
wearing
eating
listening to
reading
loving
watching
feeling
studying
anticipating
planning
please play along, either in the comments below or on my facebook or instagram pages. i'd love to hear what's going on in your lives! *******
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